I've been having one of those days where I can just feel that God is doing a serious work in my heart, in my mind too. All day long I've been thinking about what it means to be a person who loves God, what it means for me, what it should mean for the people in my life, the people who get to be around me. I just, sometimes I don't feel like I'm impacting people enough, not the way I'm supposed to at least.
Earlier on today, I ventured into my yahoo mailbox, I found out in yahoo news that Patrick Swayze, the guy from Dirty Dancing passed away just today. It made me pretty sad and it took me about two minutes before I could recover myself enough to tell my sister the news, he was 57 years old. I don't think that's enough time on earth, but I'm praying for his family and loved ones, that God would really give them the strength to get through this difficult time, that they would not cry because Patrick's time on earth is over but that a wonderful man such as him was there with them in the first place.
But this really made me think, our time on earth is so, so short. One minute you're five, then you're fifteen. Time is passing, every day, every hour, every minute and every second. Life is moving, it doesn't stop for one second.
But my God, my beautiful God, time is in His hands, the same way that I am in His hands, and that, well that just makes me smile.
I want my life on earth to make God happy, I want to follow this Saviour of mine relentlessly, uncompromisingly, I nee
d to. It is the only way to live, every other way of life is just existing, and I don't just want to exist, I want to live. I've seen that freedom, the real kind, only comes from having surrendered to Him.
"...there is a God present who at that very moment takes possession of you. You may not feel it... but God takes possession if you will trust Him. When God has begun the work of absolute surrender in you, and when God has accepted your surrender, then God holds Himself bound to care for it and to keep it. Will you believe that? In this matter of surrender there are two: God and I-- I a worm, God the everlasting and omnipotent Jehovah. Worm, will you be afraid to trust yourself to this mighty God now? God is willing. Do you not believe that He can keep you continually, day by day, and moment by moment? "
I've been screwing up in that area lately, I haven't really been leading a surrendered life, this is why my day feels so empty sometimes, my heart knows that something, someone, a very important someone is missing.
But I've made up my mind, I will follow Him tirelessly, I will follow Him as the blind, I will spend the rest of my life in His embrace.
And I pray you'll do the same...:)
Buh-bye now
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