Random thoughts, been a while since I had this kinda post..

Soo..

Okay, so I'm having a "random post" day kinda feeling..that, or I can't actually think of a suitable title for this one, or are my titles ever suitable? questionsss..
Anyhoozer, I hope everybody's okay and finding love and happiness and joy and fun and truth in Jesus, and just, learning to listen to this God that we serve..
I'm sitting here with my cup of tea and I've got some good ol' Bethany Dillon playin and I'm pretty content right now, see, I've got a lot of stuff that I need to be doing and a lot of stuff that I'm commited to at the moment - school, my music, loving people, this blog. There's just so much that I'm expecting of myself at this point in time and I just, I don't know how I'm gonna be able to do it all...but I'm leaning on God, that's what He's telling me to do.
Because, outside of Him, I really don't see how this thing called life is worth doing, if it's even possible to do, I'm just busy and I got home extra late from school today and my time just seems to be flying out the door.
Times like this really bring me to my knees and I just, I need God's grace and presence so much.
Anyways, today at school was fun, one of my favourite human beings in the world, a girl after my own heart Roma, was playing music at school today and well, it's beautiful to see what God does in people's lives even when we're mostly unconscious of it. She started playing guitar when she was eight and she's outstanding and she sings too, and I'm sure that when she first started playing, it seemed like nothing special but the truth is that, now, it's just incredible to see.
Another reason why I love her is because well, she loves my bestest friend in the entire universe - that man called Jesus.
Anyways, after school I saw one of my buddies from primary school that I haven't seen in forever and he was so growwwn! I couldn't even tell it was him, he's taller than me and everything. I don't think he recognised me but still, it was really good seeing him again and beneath all that height and puberty, it was nice to see little bits and pieces of the seven year old that I loved with all my heart.
But change, change is a good thing, especially when you know you're in God's will so don't run away from change, embrace it, arms wide open and everything.

Buh-bye now :D

More change? Lord, help me...

So...

Well, God is doing a wonderful little work in my heart today, I love times like this when I can see His will so clearly but then again, I'm not gonna lie when I say that His will, at times, frightens me a little. He's a very big God and I'm a very small human and sometimes, I depend on the physical a little too much, I forget to think beneath the surface and the things God has said just, they seem so big.
But there is this pretty little thing called surrender. And it's something that I'm learning to do more and more of everyday so we thank God for the grace that He so willingly lends to us.
I was watching this program today called "Life at the summit" and the most wonderful teacher of the Word was speaking about taking the time to evaluate the roles that the people in your life play. Now, this was a scary wonderful message for me to hear at this point in my life when so much change is taking place so rapidly. My world is constantly being altered all the time and God is just saying so much to me right now.
There are those who will add to your life, there are those who will take away from your life, there are those who will leave you as you are and there are those who will divide. And then he started saying that a best friend should be someone who brings out the best in you. I really searched in my heart to find out whether the people I call my best friends bring out the best in me, and this has got me thinking BIG TIME.
I need to be sure of the roles that people play in my life, I need to know which relationships to nurture and which ones to slowly tear myself out of. It's a very important thing and there are people that God has put in your life and at the same time, there are those that the devil has sent to derail you, to distract you from your goal in this world, to blur your vision and your focus.
So, I'm gonna start praying from now on that God teaches us to recognise these things in people and helps us to understand the roles that people play in our life better.
I'm not saying that God's will makes a lot of sense most of the time, but He is the hand that holds the world and He loves us, I'd say He's worth trusting.

Buh-bye now :)