Dreams of the future..

So...

It seems that I'm getting a little better at this whole "consistency" thing eh?
Yup, I agree.
Hehe anyways, I went to view a college today, Havering Sixth Form College to be precise and it was amazing, I love the place already. All that talk of learning and growing and furthering all the skills I've been getting in secondary school is so exciting, it makes me want to study all day if that were possible.
I just, have this deep, unshakeable feeling that God is going to do something spectacular in my life and I'm finally beginning to see that life will go on after secondary school. I always get a little sad when about leaving friends, familliarity and an entire community behind but my heart is pretty much consoled right now. I have so much potential and what God keeps saying to me is, "Arise and be all that you can be, all that I've created you to be".
I'm at this dreaming stage right now, thinking of all that I want my life to be. Obviously, Jesus is the first thing. I don't want to do this thing called life without Him, why would I?
But people there is so much promise and love around us, that it's hard to ignore. God's promises and God's love, to be precise. So much to be happy about, so much to dream about. God has so much for us and this is just, the year where I'm growing so much already and just depending on  Him like never before. Because, the waters of life, when you hold on to Him, they will not overwhelm you, trust me on this. And whatever He requires of you, do it. Seriously, do it.

Buh-bye now :D

And the change is coming..

So..

I've stopped regulating how frequently I blog now, which is rather unpleasant to be honest, I created this blog in the hopes that I'd be able to say what's on my mind more and I just haven't been doing that very much, yup, I suck, I know now.
Anyways, God's been doing a mighty big work in my heart, a mighty good one. I'm at the stage where I've tried living for myself, I've tried the whole "carnality" thing and it kinda sucks to be honest, it just doesn't matter to me anymore, God is just showing me how none of these things that we spend so much of our time pursuing, how very few of them actually matter. All these fads and trends, they just, they dissapear so fast and time, definitely, waits for no one.
I just have such a hunger for God right now and for the things of Him, I want all of Him, all of Him, or nothing at all. I want my heart, my mind, my eyes, my soul to be saturated with His presence and His love, there's just nothing else for me right now.
I need to have a reason to want to do well in life - right now I'm on the verge of the rest of my life, leaving secondary school/high school forever, it's the end of an era, it's the end of  what has become one of the most beautiful parts of my life. And all I can say is that I want Jesus.
There's just, there's so much ahead and it's crazy sometimes, so much will happen so fast, I'm growing everyday and just changing in ways that kinda scare me a little but I just know this - I want my Saviour, and I want Him alone.
The other day I was making changes to my hotmail account and it said, "relationship status" and I was looking through the options and it said, "commited" and that was the one I chose. I'm not in a relationship with anyone but I'm very commited to Someone else. What I have with Jesus, it just, it transcends love or anything that I could sit down and try to make sense of, it's just more, way more.
So change is coming, good change and God is with me, and He's in my heart and He's in my life and I know that I wouldn't be the same without Him.

Buh-bye now :)