Let's do this..

So...

Let's do this consistency thingy, funnily enough, I actually believe that I'm starting to get a hang of this. All of those difficult words - consistency, discipline, control. Man, I've just not gotten the hang of it for most of my life.
But today...well, I actually feel like I can do it.
See, I'm at this stage where I'm at the verge of the rest of my life and I know that every decision I make will impact my life, either for the better or for the worse. And I also know that we are not a product of what we do, but we are a product of what we repeat. And truthfully, old habits die hard so if you've gotten into the habit of procrastination, you can feel my pain right now.
It's just, it really is the hardest thing to break away from because you get used to all these stupid mindsets and you can actually tell yourself, most of the time, that you have an excuse for your laziness and seriously, I'm tired of living that way.
But today was a good day, had my yearbook pictures taken today. I know that I'll look back on all this stuff one day and just laugh my head off. I love being young, I love making mistakes and not knowing stuff and discovering new things about myself, about Jesus every single day, I love the carelessness and carefreeness of it.
I got the most terrible headache though, thankfully when I got to my Maths lesson, I was actually able to pay attention for more than five minutes and do some much needed revision of circle theorems and it was good, productive.
And then there's the bestie - Katherine, I love that girl. Spending time with her just makes me remember this passage from the Bible and it just rings true, "A man of many companions may fall but there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother", and we've stood by each other through a lot and we have the best and craziest memories. We could literally laugh together forever and we know each other better than anyone else. I'm gonna miss that kid when we leave secondary school.
Anyways, I can feel myself maturing, almost to the point where it's scary and then I'm reminded of a saying I've heard before - "When I was a child, I reasoned as a child..." and it's always weird for me because sometimes I still can't believe I'm getting older, going off to college and everything, it's still weird because  a part of me is just screaming, "This is happening wayyy too soon" but it is happening and it's time to embrace it.
Let's do this :)

Buh-bye now :D

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Having the most random day, and I'm really getting into Glee, one of the first new shows that I've really taken an interest in, in a looong time. I like TV, a lot, but I'm far more of a movie-with-friends-and-family person so I tend to only ever watch TV when there's good company. I can never seem to shut up, haha. Even when I was watching my favourite movie of the century, Avatar, me and my sister couldn't shut up in the cinema. We weren't too loud or anything, we just love a good chat and there were things that I know I wouldn't have laughed about if I wasn't there with her.
My pastor is quite a frank, straight-to-the-point kinda guy and on his office door, where everyone can see it says, "This year - control your mouth". In my life, control and mouth tend to kinda avoid it each other like the plague. This is bad. So very bad.
When I look back on my life, there is a lot of crap that I could have just avoided had I just taken the time to actually think about what I'm saying or just refrain from saying certain things at all.
And a couple of weeks ago, I experienced firsthand how words can really impact a life. Someone said something that sounded kinda small, it was less than ten words but it stayed with me for about three days, constantly haunting my mind, eating away at my confidence, slowly ebbing away at my insecurities and boy did it suck.
I don't want to be the kinda person that kills dreams and hearts with their words, if there is a single thing that I want to do in this life, it's to encourage and inspire, and make people happy. I want to love people through my words and I want people to see the love of God in me.
It's kinda odd that the same mouth that I use to bless the God of Heaven is sometimes the mouth that I use to curse or hurt someone, it's darn shameful I tell you. It makes no sense and you can serve only one master.
I plan to serve God.
Simple as that.

"Let my words be few"

Buh-bye now :)