Again, I haven't been blogging very consistently, which I do apologise for (if anyone is actually reading this blog besides my best-friends Rose and Katherine).
Anywho, today is Wednesday, school was pretty good today, I had to do some serious work on my music coursework today and it's soundin' pretty good, I must admit.
But life is pretty awesome right now, though I'm pretty appalled at myself right now, God had to literally get my iPod to stop working just so that we could have some valuable Father/daughter time where He could talk to me, get me to see through His eyes and yes, illuminate my darkness...
"I can be, in a crowd, or by myself, and almost anywhere, when I feel there's a need, to talk with God, He is Emmanuel, when I close my eyes, no darkness there, there's only light"So, He's been speaking to my heart...
See, this whole growing up, in fact, this whole being alive thing is such a journey, and already, it's been the most eventful journey for me...
from the basic things like being responsible and punctual to letting God be God in my life, allowing myself to be loved thoroughly by Him, it's not always easy because there's this seriously human part of me that's screaming, "Lord, I want to do it on. my. own!"
Of course that part of me is the idiot part :P
There is a part of the me that is constantly warring against God's word, His will, and of course, I will never surrender...
So God has been speaking to me about keeping my eyes on Him, something that is very hard for me to do, I always want to do things, to be busy, I want things done in a hurry, this is a fast-paced world but all of that stuff makes my eyes do weird things and it's only when I focus on God that all those other things fall into perspective...
things like school, love, self-esteem, fun times, work, career stuff etc.
Knowing that God holds my heart and my very life, I'm very excited about growing up, I'm so passionate about life, about growing more and more each day, about stepping up and being who I was created to be, there's so little fear in this heart right now.
Not that the occasional bout of fear will not seize me every now and then but God's truth will always beat it back, always...
Buh-bye now
:) <3
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