Anyways, God's been doing a mighty big work in my heart, a mighty good one. I'm at the stage where I've tried living for myself, I've tried the whole "carnality" thing and it kinda sucks to be honest, it just doesn't matter to me anymore, God is just showing me how none of these things that we spend so much of our time pursuing, how very few of them actually matter. All these fads and trends, they just, they dissapear so fast and time, definitely, waits for no one.
I just have such a hunger for God right now and for the things of Him, I want all of Him, all of Him, or nothing at all. I want my heart, my mind, my eyes, my soul to be saturated with His presence and His love, there's just nothing else for me right now.
I need to have a reason to want to do well in life - right now I'm on the verge of the rest of my life, leaving secondary school/high school forever, it's the end of an era, it's the end of what has become one of the most beautiful parts of my life. And all I can say is that I want Jesus.
There's just, there's so much ahead and it's crazy sometimes, so much will happen so fast, I'm growing everyday and just changing in ways that kinda scare me a little but I just know this - I want my Saviour, and I want Him alone.
The other day I was making changes to my hotmail account and it said, "relationship status" and I was looking through the options and it said, "commited" and that was the one I chose. I'm not in a relationship with anyone but I'm very commited to Someone else. What I have with Jesus, it just, it transcends love or anything that I could sit down and try to make sense of, it's just more, way more.
So change is coming, good change and God is with me, and He's in my heart and He's in my life and I know that I wouldn't be the same without Him.
Buh-bye now :)
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